Sunday, April 7, 2013

I'm never gonna dance again

If ignorance is bliss, they always say cherish it.  So maybe trusting some people should count as ignorance on my part.   My thoughts on the subject right now are jumbled and totally hard to decipher and break apart.   

Brooke Tessmacher:  Sis, you know it's kind of sad.  I won the battle royal at Wrestlemania to be crowned number one contender for MsChif's title and not once has my best friend texted me to congratulate me. 

Kimberly Adams:   It's probably just jealousy at the fact you are finally finding your niche and the jealousy that you're going to win that championship when you face MsChif.

Brooke Tessmacher:  If she really was a friend she wouldn't be jealous.  She would be happy for me and glad that I'm getting an opportunity.

Brooke gives a thoughtful look at her sister sitting across from her;  Kimberly is looking through the Ruby Tuesday menu trying to figure out what she wants to get while Brooke is contemplating the direction events around her are going which has pretty much made her loose her appetite

Brooke Tessmacher: I'm not worried about the whole situation, but  this whole situation disgusts me if she wants to be this way that's fine.  I'm not going to worry about Kelly's issues,  I am more worried about my match with MsChif  I won't deny I respect her.

Kimberly Adams:   I don't blame you for not trying to figure out what is wrong with Kelly.  She has always been an asshole and never figure out why you hung out with her you're better then that.

Brooke Tessmacher:  At that point I was struggling to feel accepted and ended up getting accepted by the wrong people.... I was broken then, but I'm going to start looking out for myself and not be taken for granted or even manipulated anymore,  I'm tired of being the weakest link and being played be people I thought cared about me.

Kimberly Adams:   I feel you on that, but you shouldn't become so full of anger because of her, you should use that to set a fire in you to become a better person.  A person better then Kelly has or ever will be at any point in her life.

Brooke Tessmacher:  S'ppose you're right?  If I can't trust someone whom  I thought was my best friend then who can I trust in the EBWF?  I'm tired of trying to please people who don't care what happens to me. I'm reminded of some Alice in Chains lyrics that I think can go for this whole situation.

Hollow as a mountain all tunneled and drilled below
Hollow as a mountain crowned with a cold
Hollow as a mountain all tunneled and drilled below
Hollow as a mountain crowned with a cold, blue sky

Maybe it's time for me to become Hollow?   Sometimes you truly have to change who you are to become better then you were.    I want to make my own name for myself and the best way to do that is when I take on MsChif is none other then but to win.  I don't need to be distracted by all that other bullshit being associated with Kelly brings.

Kimberly Adams:   You're better then this Brooke.... I can understand you being upset who wouldn't be you had one of the biggest moments in your career and someone you thought was your best friend treats you this way but instead of turning so dang hollow why don't you learn to pick your friends better,  I mean for example I never seen you as happy as when you were hanging out with Cena, what happened to that?

Brooke Tessmacher:  Cena, he has more pressing things to worry about then me which doesn't really surprise me he is one of the marquee names in EBWF.  I'm not going to feel guilty about the time I have spent with him because it was fun, but I feel maybe I should keep my distance;  I don't want him to feel like I'm smothering him or even just trying to use him because I'm not. *sigh* He's one of the few people in the past few months who has treated me like a human and I owe him for that and maybe why it would be best for me to distance myself for his benefit.

Kimberly kind of just sits there at the table;  she looks at the features on her once beautiful sister but now the seem so much more rough and rugged which just completely blows her mind.  As far as she can remember her older sister was the main one who always had it together especially after growing up with the fact their dad and brother were drug addicts and they had to live in car with their mother before moving to Texas from St.  Louis to start anew with their mom.  It was only just recently Brooke returned to St. Louis to live and take up residence despite all those events Brooke had always been one of the toughest people she knew and never really cared what other thought but lately this Brooke before Kimberly's eyes was not a Brooke she was at all familiar with.

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